Post secret and postcard secrets

I have been reading secrets that poeple have and all kinds of old feelings came up that I thought I had buried deep inside. I'm crying from the pain of memeries. All from things poeple have gone theough. I have menu secrets and may send in a post card my self. Or I will blog it here. I haven't decided yet. I'm overwelmed with the pain and don't want to be too quick. What if some one I know reads it. Here they will know me on the site they won't know it's me. But I can say this... When I was younger from how my family acted that holding in your feeling was the way things were done. Atleast that's what I pocked up on. So that's what I did. I would hold in all the pain I was feeling until I lashed out. All the pain was still there but I was noticed atleast. Grace has told me some of her past and the picture that she has painted for me isn't a happy child hood but she made the best of it. She has an outlook on life of the good that can happen. I feel at times that there is something she's hiding from me but it doesn't feel like it's a bad thing...well bad to me...um about me I mean. Anyways back to me. I want to finaly let go of my pain my secrets but worrie that she will see this or one of her friends and tell her. I just remmembered that she said I can put it down here and just save it and not post it. I will do that first but if the pain stays then I will post it so all can see it. That way it will be out and should be gone from me forever