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I took one of those weeks off just because if I didn't I was going to go nuts. Being on a truck with just one other person can get on your nerves. Lol driving down to Vegas and I'm tierd but stil have atleast two hours to go. In my last post I was saying I hope grace knows what I'm doing for her. I belive she knows how much I'm doing for her. Part is because I want to do them for her and myself. I'm a giver. I enjoy giveing. Long as I get something in thx or return I'm happy. She made me some slippers and I love them. Every time I do something for her she says thank you and gives me a hug and a kiss. And that's all I need to reseve from her. Just being with me is more than enough. Now that I know where I stand I feel better. I don't have that feeling of not knowing. She has started to be more cuddely and atentive. It's a nice feeling knowing your wanted. But I hope it's at her pase. This is after she read my blog. I don't want her to do anything faster then what she's ready for. The next time I'm intown and my daughter too if she asks for me and my daughter to stay the night I will know that it's because of the blogs and I will say no. Same if she says she wants to stay at my place. When I had told her it was ok to read my blog I hadn't remembered what I pit in them. I read them later and was ashamed at what I had put. I have to start writeing about other things too. Not just about her. My probleem is that I don't have much else going on. Everything else going on I have lots of time to think about so I don't need to rite it down and read it later. Yes I delet my blogs. Either because I have thought things out and don't need them anymore but I deleted all my blogs because I hurt grace and it hurt me that I hurt her. I never want to hurt her again. Well I'm getting close to Vegas.