nervus

well i took the lower paying job. im not sure at this time if i have made the right decision or not but in my head it makes sence. so thats all i can hope for. things are going well still. grace and i seem to be doing good. to me it seems like shes hideing something. i asked what she was doing this weekend and she said that she was going to be crafty most of saterday and skate and take a friend out to see a camidian. i was alittle suprised. i dont mind her takeing "me" days but she could have atleast told me. i dont think she would have told me unless i asked. i can feel that theres something there but i dont have a clue of what it is. she wasnt all cuddely last night. she sat away from me and then seemed to realize that and started to cuddle. It all could be in my head. She may miss her family and that's why she acts this way. I am on her computer and I can see that if I wanted to I could go straight to her bolg. I'm tempted but it would be wrong. I'm not sure if there would ever be a good reason to see her blog. I think today and tomorrow I will leave her alone unless she contacts me. She needs to work something out. I made a coment about comeing over after I put my daughter to bed and she said something that made me start thinking that there's something going on. Idk. I just like to spend time with her. I maybe reading into everything way too much. Some things I read too much and others that I should notice fly right by me. well i better start my day