Grace and ex and kid

So I had a fight with my ex about three weeks ago. It was bad. I had lost my temper and said something I shouldn't have. I cooled down and tried to fix things. No responce. Whatever. So there was a big party for her and her new hubby and the fact they where haveing a kid. I made plans to stay somewhere else because I couldn't be around her. I may have started up the fight again. I didn't want that so I picked up my daughter and left. I stayed at the house I'm moveing into. It was a great weekend. Spending time with my daughter. And grace spent time with me and my daughter. I know it was a huge step for grace to do this. I can't say enough how much that means to me. To be able to spend time with grace and my daughter. It has been tarring me apart trying to spend time with both at the same time when I was home for only two days. I want to spend time with both. More time with my daughter cus I don't see her as much as I see grace. She has been amazing with how she has handled everything and how she talks about the future. She is talking about how to make things better and easier to spend time with my daughter and her at the same time. Not only that but talking about plans of other things that put me in the picture far into the future being with her. Ok far into the future is about 6months but that's still a long ways off. So I have been jelious about a few things but I'm not voiceing my thoughts cus I belive they are only thoughts and not truths. It's just my aprehention becuase of what has been done to me in the past. I still have a problem wanting to know about her blog and her diary. I wouldn't read them but I still want to know what she realy is thinking. She is quiet for the most part. Oh ya we had a talk cus she told me those words to me aweek ago. "we need to talk" I was going nuts. Worrieing and all. She told me not to and I setteled down abit. We had the talk and it showed her past to me. I had no idea of her past until then. Other than little chips here and there. It opened my eyes to how my daughter is Bering treated and I'm going to make things better. I always thought I had bees doing the right thing and after that talk I had with grace showe me I was makeing misstakes. Things are going great between us. She is doing little things for me here and there. I like the fact that she likes to help me but it's hard for me to take help. I'm a giver of help. I don't reseve help very well. Same as presents. I like to get them but at the same time I don't. I think she is the same way. Heck I know she is the same way. I help her every chance I get. I do some things without asking and just do it but most of the time I'm asking before I do anything. Lately she has been saying no she doesn't need my help. And I understand and she told me why. It's because she doesn't want to take advantage of my kindness and abouse it. I'm glad she's starting to say no to me. It's hard for her to take help but is working on acepting it when she realy needs it. Since she started doing little things for me I feel like I need to step up what I do for her more. The fact that she is dealing with all my baggage and now finding ways to spend time with me and my daughter are no little things to deal with. And now she's doing the little things. Sigh...it makes me feel like I must do more for her. She deals with so much and her isues army that bad to deal with. Most are just simple thought isues. Not that bad to deal with. Like useing the BF and GF titles. Not a big deal but she